Tuesday, June 15, 2010

To my blogging friends

When I created this blog I wanted it to be place where I could be utterly honest, and let the rest of the world (or at least the 2 or 3 who might pop in every once in a while) capture an inside glimpse of what life is like in my seat.

When my children were learning to drive--I wrote about it here. When they had their first wreck--I wrote about it here...boyfriends, proms, cancer...I wrote about it here.

But now something has happened that is more painful than cancer and more serious than car wrecks. And I'm not going to write about it here.

So--what do I write about?

How I cry myself to sleep at night? Or wake up at 4:30 in the morning to talk to God about it? I don't really know how to do vague and discreet. But for now it has to be. So...I'll blog a bit--maybe figure a way to share without sharing and invite you into this journey with me.

6 comments:

Dori said...

I'm so sorry. I have no idea what in the world could be worse than cancer, but you have my prayers.

Blessings,
Dori

bethdunn said...

Leighann, I know about crying and waking up during the night with a heavy heart- I guess at some point in their lives, every mother experiences that heartache. I know you know this, but, remember, "this too shall pass". Just keep crying out to Jesus, leaving your burdens at His feet. I'll be praying for your load to be lifted soon.

Melissa said...

I don't know what is going on, but I will be praying for you.

O:)
Melissa

Julie said...

I have no idea what you are going through and I don't need to know. You and God know and will work it out together and when you are ready to share in a way that will help someone else you will. For now, know that I think you are an amazing woman of God and you have taught me so much. Praying for you and wishing you all the best!

Carol C said...

Throughout this trial, my prayer will be for God to take even this and use it for His glory. This I know: We can trust wherever He leads, and we can know that He does use everything, even the hard things of life. In the end we will find Him faithful. In the end we will find Him true. In the end we will see what He has done and marvel at His ability to use everything and waste nothing. Even this. Continuing to pray!!

Wife of the Pres. said...

Leighann, I am just now coming up for air to check on blogs. We left for China on June 17 and got home on July 2, so life has been full. We've missed church for 3 weeks straight as we were in China for 2 Sundays and not in any shape last Sunday morning.

I have no idea what is going on, but I will pray. I read your most recent posts too. I honestly can't imagine what it is like. I get to CHOOSE what I share on my blog and even in real life about our crazy, love-filled, and yet incredibly difficult on some days life. For you and PT, it is not like that and I can't imagine. As for the fish bowl, well I don't have any idea what the ride you're on is but if you're worried about others may think … you know I've learned that is futile. (Often I've learned the hard way.) We've lost friends over the life we've chosen and the life we feel God has called us to … but we've gained so much more. Yes, it is incredibly difficult some days and no, we don't know what lies ahead for any of our children but especially for the ones who've come to us broken in so many ways … and yet we go where He leads (or at least we try to do that). You and PT have done that with your lives and in doing so, you are in the spotlight when perhaps you'd rather be in the shadows a lot of the time.

Our two new sons are adjusting well, so we're hopeful to be at church on Sunday but I can't promise we won't have to get up and leave. :)) It is the life we lead right now. We had a good trip in China and we have one son who has been well-fed and well-loved and another who is as needy as they come, an orphan in every sense of the word until we came for him. But he is ripening with love on a daily basis!

Well, I've chatted too long and we've greatly missed TSC. It will be good to be back and we will definitely pray. You know the Lord knows when we pray with your family on our hearts what your greatest needs are in that moment. And He is the healer and Sustainer. {{{HUGS}}}